I keep avoiding him. I know it isn't good, and I should try to talk to him more, but I can't. Every time I look at him I just get feelings and I get embarrassed and I can't look at him normally. Gah.
I miss the times when I didn't notice my feelings. I could talk to him so freely. We made jokes. Now I just make awkward eye-contact and go back to talking to my friends. He probably thinks I hate him.
Wow, I hate me for being so awkward.