I was reading Kimi Ni Todoke all over again today, and as I was reading the part where Sawako told Kurumi her feelings for whatever his name is, I thought of telling my friend how I feel for the guy I like. I've been thinking of telling her for a while now, but I'm so scared of what she'll say.
The thing is, he isn't not great-looking.
He is better off with another girl.
He's not the kind of guy for me.
But she trusts me. I should be able to tell her everything, you know? She's one of my closest friends. She understands me. We're both great friends with him, but after telling her, I just know it'll make things awkward.
I want to tell her though. I want to tell her so badly. I want to tell all my friends how I feel for him, so they can know my feelings for him, and that these feelings aren't bottled up inside. But I can't. They think he's absolutely perfect for this other girl. And I, unfortunately, think so too. They would be the cutest couple.
And this girl is one of my close friends too. I feel like I'm betraying her every time I see him. It sucks, actually. Sigh.
Liking someone is so very hard.